Psalm 55:22: Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: (NKJV)  Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you; (Amplified)

Did you mean it? Is it really true? Can we just cast our cares on you and go on like nothing ever happened? If so, how do I do that? How do I stop the thoughts from going around and around and around? How do I stop the frustration from sending me catapulting to the edge of reason every time something goes wrong? How do I change my thought patterns after 43 years of programming?

I’m trying, I really am but it is hard. It just seems like the burdens (cares) come faster than I can release them. My frustration level is high which means that it is simmering just below the surface and it doesn’t take much to make it erupt and run over. 

For the life of me I just don’t understand how you think I’m so strong that I can continue to stand up against all that the enemy is dishing out right now. Yet, at other times I can say the scripture and verse and truly embrace it. 

1 Corinthians 10:13: God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. (NIV)

But God is faithful [to His Word and to His compassionate nature], and He [can be trusted] not to let you be tempted and tried and assayed beyond your ability and strength of resistance and power to endure, but with the temptation He will [always] also provide the way out (the means of escape to ^[c]a landing place), that you may be capable and strong and powerful to bear up under it patiently. (Amplified)

I feel like Peter when they were in the ship and Christ came walking on the water and Peter asked to come to him yet he took his eyes off the master and started to sink.

Matthew 14:31: And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”(NKJV)

I wish I could keep my eyes trained fully on Him. I wish my faith was greater than a mustard seed but I am so undisciplined that I find it hard to keep my focus on Him when there are so many fires raging. If I could go to church every day I would because then I know that I would stay focused and built up in faith but if I miss a Sunday service or a Wednesday bible study then my whole week falls apart. I need to stay focused but I allow the world to crowd into my life and overtake things. I have tons of books to read, tapes to listen to and study guides to keep me going for a while but I lack the discipline to set aside time to read, ponder and pray and stick with it. I allow things to get me off track, problems to consume my thoughts and actions and depression to steal my energy.